Chapter 14 Gerard and Alicia sat in the empty cafeteria in silence, trays of food laid out in front of them, but neither was hungry; they stared down at the full tray and spoke no words. Alicia could feel herself shaking, her husband is suffering from memory loss and he’s paralyzed because of what she said, because of her their life was once again turned upside down. Gerard’s throat was tight and he struggled to keep himself calm. His brother’s life was ruined, all those years ruined in a matter of a few months. Gerard sighed and got up. Alicia looked up at him startled. “I have to call Lindsay, I promised I would.” Gerard muttered and walked outside into the bitter morning air. He dialed the familiar number and waited for his wife to answer. “Hey baby, how is he?” Lindsay asked. “Not good, he thinks its 2007 and…..Lindsay he’s paralyzed from the waist down. He can’t remember anything from the accident or what happened a few months ago.” Gerard explained a tear running down his weary cheeks. “Oh my God….” Lindsay breathed, “And what happened to the other driver?” “He was killed on impact; we haven’t told Mikey that yet, we don’t want to freak him out anymore than he is at the moment. Lindsay the doctors say it’s most likely permanent that he’ll be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life.” Gerard stated, “I don’t know what I can do to help him, he’s scared and confused, and I just don’t know what to say to him.” “Gee just be his brother, tell him it’s going to be alright, that you’re there for him, that you love him. Just treat him like you always have, don’t pity him….that’s not what he’ll want. He will need his big brother Gerard, all he’ll need is love and patience. And I know for a fact that you can give those to him.” Lindsay answered in a soft voice. Gerard nodded, “Thank you Lindsay….I miss you and Miss B.” “We both miss you too honey, but take care of Mikey. We’ll be okay for a few days.” Lindsay said. They said their goodbyes and hung up. Gerard wiped his eyes and took a deep breath before going back inside. *************** Mikey watched TV mindlessly, he couldn’t do much else. He kept urging his legs to move, to walk but nothing happened. He tried to remember anything that has happened in the past five years but he was drawing a blank, it was like a fog has covered his brain and there was no way he could see through it. The door opened and Mikey saw a middle aged woman with her brown hair put up in a loose bun. Her eyes were bloodshot and swollen, dark rings circled them. Mikey had no idea who she was, but he did know that she looked furious. “Ma’am who are you?” Mikey asked his voice quivering. She laughed a sickly-cold laugh, “Who am I? I’m the wife of the man you killed last night.” Mikey’s eyes went wide, “What are you talking about? I didn’t kill anyone….I-I was in an accident.” “That you caused!” She walked over to the side of the bed, she showed Mikey a picture of a man with brown hair holding a small girl in his arms, “This is Adam; he’s the man you murdered last night! That little girl will grow up with no father because of you.” Mikey shook his head, “No…no...I-I didn’t kill anyone. I can’t remember…I can’t remember.” The woman look at Mikey with venomous eyes, “I heard you can’t walk…you can’t remember the last five years. Good. You deserve to go to hell. You should be dead; you should be the one being put in the ground not Adam.” Mikey felt tears well in his eyes, “Ma’am I’m so sorry…but it was an accident. I wish it was him that was alive. I’m so sorry.” The woman looked Mikey up and down, “You’re not sorry…why would you be sorry? You’re alive and healing.” Mikey heard the door opened again, Gerard and Alicia stop, “Excuse me? Who are you and why are you talking to my brother?” “You’re the murders brother? Aren’t you proud of him?” She snapped. Alicia gasped, “How dare you! You have no idea what he’s been through! It was an accident! How dare you come in here and call him a murderer! You have no fucking idea!” Alicia shouted. “He’s the monster that took my husband!” The women screamed back, “Because of him I have to raise my daughter on my own! Because of him I have to plan a funeral!” Mikey covered his ears in an attempt to shut out the screams, when that didn't work he also squeezed his eyes shut. Gerard rushed over to Mikey and wrapped his arms around him as if to protect him. Alicia looked at the woman, “I am so sorry for your loss, I really am…but you need to leave, before I call security.” The woman shot one last glare at Mikey before pushing past Alicia and out the door. She could see Gerard whispering words into Mikey’s ear; Mikey slowly lowered his hands and looked into Gerard’s eyes. “Did I really kill that man?” Mikey asked his voice shaky. “Mikey it was an accident, you didn’t see him and he didn’t see you until it was too late. No one is at fault here. It was just a tragic accident.” Gerard stated trying to calm his brother down. Alicia looked down at her stomach, she was still wondering if she should tell Mikey about the baby again. She had been given a second chance and she didn't want to waste it. But she knew Mikey would have to be told about that night. He would have to relive everything, and this scared her. She had no idea on how he’d take it, would he leave her? Would he not talk to her? Alicia sighed, how one person supposed to tell another something like that? How would she tell him? After thinking it over for a few moments she decided it could wait until he was at least out of the hospital.