Discussion in 'General Off Topic' started by mcr xshannx, Mar 6, 2007.
I like your attitude. She sounds like a lovely person, keep looking up love.
I think now that I'm in my final year of school, I've matured a lot and realized how much I need and depend on my parents, there's little they don't know about me. Life with your parents is a lot easier if you do let them know things, shutting them out never helps, I've learnt.
The only thing they probably don't know, is that I still occasionally smoke weed or take E, but that's because I told them I stopped. Which I will.
It's not that I've always been opposed to letting them know things about my life, but when they've made it clear they don't approve of a single thing you do or stand for, secrecy is a given.
As of now, they don't know how hellbent I am on leaving before I graduate. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but it's time for me to be selfish and try to get out of here to protect my sanity. I don't want to have all of this insane emotional baggage just in time for college.
my parents don't know:
- that i'm on this website
- that i love writing fan-fic
- that i cut
- that i have tried to kill myself 3 times.
- that i gave myself a second ear peirsing
- that when i say i'm going out for a walk, i normally just sit on the bench at the park behind the school, and cry / cut / sleep /light things on fire (a few gloves, some leaves, etc.)
- i bought i lighter the other day at the corner store
- when my dad came into my room and said that he smelt something burning, it was because i was burning a lavender candeal
- i'm in a band with my best friend.
oh, geez, where do i start..
first off, they don't know how numb and empty i'm feeling at the moment, i've been like this for almost a year now, half of my mothers side is upset with me, and they didn't understand when i told them that i don't show my emotions as openly as others.
secondly, i cry myself to sleep, about 3 times a week.
i'm losing my faith, in my religion as a whole, and oh gosh, if they every found out about that then they'd flip shit and probably kick me out.
i'm giving up on everything, school, friends, i really don't see myself getting anywhere in the future, i'm failing all my subjects but i couldn't give a fuck now. i wouldn't be saying the same this time last year.
i envy my sister in every way possible, she's everything my parents hoped i'd be, but i obviously disappointed them. i'm stubborn, lazy, sometimes selfish and no-one has ever hesitated to tell me it, but i'm not denying it either.well it seems like i got carried away, i'll stop boring you now. lol, theres tons more but i cba right now. its just gone 1:00am here and i'm tiiirredd.
My parents don't know that I've smoked weed. < hated it by the way.
That I've allowed my younger sister to smoke weed.
That I have had sex with my ex boyfriend. (the condom broke, but I'm not pregnant)
That I am bisexual.
And have been dating my best female friend for three years now.
That I used to drink.
That I have this account. If they did, they'd kill me for the stories I read.
That sometimes I still have the urge to cut, not because I'm depressed, but because I have this strange obsession with blood.
Wow, I keep a lot of things from my parents.
-I met my best friend online 4 years ago and we still haven't met in person
-I have a girlfriend
-I still cut
-I starve myself
-I've tried to kill myself multiple times
-I have this account, and I write and read fanfiction
In all honesty, I lie to my parents about most things.
They don't know the first thing about me.
My sexuality. My dad is always making homophobic comments, what am I suppose to tell him.
I love that everyone in this thread appears to be in the closet.
So, yeah, I'm also in the closet.
Additionally, I'm failing Calculus, I'm an insomniac, and I frequently use Oxycodone (or if I'm out of that, Benadryl, god love me) to make myself pass out.
^ Tried the whole Benadryl thing this past Summer. Didn't work :/
^ Ridiculous amounts. At least ten to twelve pills to get a little messed up, but hallucinations kick in at fourteen or more. It's a terrible, terrible thing to do in that there's absolutely no upside to it, the hallucinations are scary, it is not a high at all. Alas, bad judgements lead to addictions.
My dad doesn't know that I really ran out of my Vicodin prescription already. He doesn't know the pills I've been taking are from someone else. And not all of them are Vicodin.
^ Hm. I guess the most I ever took at once was four; I didn't have very many to begin with :/
I hide the fact that I role play online. It's ridiculous the situations "I" get into whilst rping and I don't need my dad knowing. Besides he thinks I'm insane already.
I also hide that I am most likely going to fail web design and that I am scheduled to graduate in January
- No one knows that I really broke my laptop by going on the internet while taking a bath. Dropped the laptop in the water and didn't get electrocuted.
My mother doesn't know all of my friends are 20+
i never talk to them, so prety much eveything
They aren't aware of most of my hopes and dreams.
They do not know how fucking much I dislike my new school. When I come home in the evening I tell them how great it is.
They don't know Im not making any friends.
They don't know the names my classmates constantly call me.
They aren't aware that I only have 1 real friend lol
Theres probably more than that but my brain's a bitch.
My parents don't know I once ended up in the sober house while walking in the uptown, alone, with a bottle of Jim Beam in my hand wearing no shirt and a leather jacket over my bra.
It was 7am on a work day.
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