Skyway Avenue [one-shot] [Frerard] - The Black Parade

-Elsi- · 01-30-2008, 12:41 PM

Yello dudes!

So, here is a lovely one-shot for you all. It is dedicated to Shane because a), I love her and b) she likes it

Here ya go!

-Elsi- · 01-30-2008, 12:41 PM

Gerard’s P.O.V

Three more steps.

I’ve been here before.

But this time…

Two more steps.

It will be the way out.

I can’t turn back…

One more step.

I stand at the edge of the building. Below me are speeding cars, people rushing about, people with babies, people with friends, families. People with LIVES. I couldn’t class my pathetic existence as a ‘life’. So many times have I stared down at the city life of New York thirteen stories below. No one knew how often I have tried this. No one CARED. Sure, people can pretend, but I can see through their lies. No one knew I only tried to do this because the bleak repetitiveness of everyday life was killing me slowly. I just wanted to get it over and done with. I closed my eyes. I WILL do it. I CAN do it.

I sat down and buried my face in my hands in defeat. I thought THIS time I wouldn’t use the stairs or the broken down lift to get back to the streets below, back to Skyway Avenue. I sat there, my legs crossed, the wind stinging my already closed eyes, the cold biting into me relentlessly. I stayed there, listening to the sounds of life. If you can call this life. My existence is nothing but a dream, a dream that only I can stop.

‘I guess you’re up here for the same reason as me.’ I jumped so violently I nearly tipped over the edge there and then. I gripped onto the gutter in blind panic to steady myself. Coward.

‘F*ck.’ I muttered, opening my eyes and looking around. I nearly fell off the roof again when I noticed the owner of the voice I had just heard was sat only a few feet away from me. The first thing I noticed about the boy was that he was sat with his legs dangling over the side of the building, his hands clutching the gutter so tightly his knuckles were turning white. I immediately feared for his safety; I mean, I knew straight away how close he was to pushing himself off. Then my eyes travelled upward. He was wearing the sort of things you would wear in the summer: a thin T-shirt and three quarter Khaki combats. I worried how cold he probably was: I was all wrapped up and there he was, freezing. I noticed he looked a couple of years younger than me, probably about twenty or twenty-one. He had big hazel eyes that looked so determined, he was so skinny, and he had black hair ruffled by the wind. He was biting his lip, and I saw he had a piercing.

‘Well?’ He croaked, the wind getting to his throat. I stared at my knees.

‘I’m ruining the life cycle of the everyday suburban human.’ I sighed.

‘You know, it could be really easy.’ He mumbled, and I looked up to see him looking at his hands. ‘Just one-’ He jolted forward and I gasped. He just looked at me, a smirk playing on his lips.

‘It could be really easy…’ He repeated, the smile falling from his face. ‘…But it isn’t.’ I shifted, trying to ignore the cold.

‘So… why are you here, other than the obvious reasons?’ I asked. He looked away- I mean, he was already not looking at me but then he looked the opposite way- and gulped. I could see tears springing up in his eyes.

‘Oh…’ He whispered. I could barely hear him over the wind. ‘It’s… hard to explain. But I suppose I might as well do it now.’ He fumbled in his pocket and pulled out a folded up piece of paper and a paperweight. He set them both down, but when I reached for them he slapped my hand away.

‘Not until it’s over.’ He said. I watched as he prepared himself… I watched until I couldn’t bear it any longer.

‘Wait-’ I began, but stopped as the boy gave me a cold glare.

‘What are you going to do? Tell me that someone cares? Tell me that someone actually wants me on this retarded planet? Because if you tell me that, then you’re wrong.’ He growled aggressively, and I flinched.

‘I’m just saying, think about this…’ I muttered, but his glare only got harsher.

‘Oh, I’ve thought about this. I’ve thought about this so much, I can’t think of any other ways I CAN think about it. I’ve listed the pros and cons, I wrote a f*cking SUICIDE note… so don’t even think that I’m not prepared.’ He hissed.

‘Well… if you’re going to jump, I suppose I’m going to have to as well.’ I replied. His eyes widened before filling with tears. He sniffed as they fell from his eyes.

‘Let’s do it.’ He whispered, and we stood up simultaneously. I grasped his hand as we took a couple of steps back.

‘So, what’s your name?’ I asked.

‘Frank.’

‘Nice to meet you Frank, I’m Gerard.’ I chuckled nervously.

‘Oh, and Frank?’

‘Yeah?’ I turned and kissed him on the lips. I pulled back to reveal him stunned.

‘Thank you.’ I said.

‘N-no problem.’ He stuttered. ‘Now, let’s just get this done.’

Three steps.

Two steps.

One step.

Gone.

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Frank's suicide note:

She said let's change our luck
this night is all we've got
drive fast until we crash
this dead end life
sweet dreams that won't come true
I'd leave it all for you
brick walls are closing in
let's make a run tonight

blinded by the lights
hold you through forever
Won't let you go

cause if you jump
I will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue

she said don't change your mind
let's leave this town behind
we'll race right off the cliff
they will remember this
it all got so mundane
with you I'm back again
just take me by the hand
we're close to the edge

blinded by the lights
hold you through forever
never let you go

cause if you jump
I will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue

where are your guts to fly
soaring through, through the night
and if you take that last step
I'll follow you
leave the edge and fly
we're finally alive

cause if you jump
I will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue
so what's left to prove
we have made it through